To me, "Fearless" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, fearless is living in spite of thouse things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. Fearless is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over agian. . . even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when somone apologizes to you enough times for the things they'll never stop doing, I think it's fearless to stop believing them. It's fearless to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless. Letting go is fearless. Then, moving on and being alright. . . That's fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. . . I think love is fearless.

-Taylor Swift

"Who in the world do you run to when the only person who can stop your tears is the one who made you cry?"

Sometimes in life you just have to look toward the future, and not worry about all the bad stuff that's going on in the present. Easier said than done. Sometimes it's like you go through days and after a week's gone by you wonder how the heck you made it through. It's hard when you feel like you just can't go on, and the people you trust the most can't even help you. The people that are supposed to be there for you, like parents, don't understand and there's just not anyone out there who can relate. I think everybody feels like this once in a while. I guess the only thing to do is just do what they say, hang in there and focus on the future and trust that everything will work out in the end.

The Perfect Man

Pics...

My friend Jenna is an amazing photographer! Last night she took a ton of pictures of me. She only sent me a few for now, but here's a couple I liked.

Young and Beautiful...

That's what describes my friends. They keep my feet on the ground no matter what. I'm so lucky to be blessed with amazing friends! Most people wouldn't be lucky enough to get one friend like mine in their lifetime. We've been through so much together, but we've always hung on to each other. We're more like family than we are friends. The past few years have been rough for all of us at some point but somehow we've been able to hang on to each other even if there was nothing else to hold on to. We've done some fun, crazy, wild, and stupid things... but looking back, I wouldn't trade it for anything.

My Biggest Fan

One of my biggest heros in my life is my brother, Richard. He's 8 years older than me, but he's one of my best friends in the whole world. Somehow, he always knows what to say or do to help me through a bad day, and I know he'll always be there. Him and I are alike in so many ways that we just seem to get along so well. We love to watch movies together or go on drives in his convertible. He's the coolest brother anyone could ever ask for! He can be such a dork, but he can always make me laugh. I don't know how I got lucky enough to have such and amazing brother and best friend, and I know he'll always be my biggest fan!! Love you Rich!

The Loves of My Life

My favorite things in the world are my adorable nieces and nephews. Quincy and Max live in Missouri and I miss them so much. I see pictures of them and talk on the phone, but it seems like they're growing up right before my eyes! Quincy is my partner in crime. She looks out for me. She knows the answers to the most important questions, "Who's your favorite aunt?, Who do you miss?, Who do you love?", etc. The right answer of course is always, "Wawa B." She never disappoints. I can't wait until she's a teenager and I'm the "cool aunt" that she goes shopping with and hangs out with and tells all her secrets to. I've never been a mom, but I feel like she's my own daughter. I love her SO much!! I can't wait to see her!

Max is my cute little guy too. Since he was born halfway across the country, I haven't had a chance to spend nearly as much time with him as I have Quincy, but he's the cutest little guy in the world. Whenever I see a picture of him I wanna grab his chubby little cheeks and hold him! He's so adorable! I miss these kids SOOO much!!!!!!!!!!

Cody is my oldest nephew, I can't believe he just turned 8! He's almost like that obnoxious little brother I've never had. He pretty much grew up at my house when he was a tiny kid, and I've been almost like a mom to him. He's a sweet kid, but he's going through those annoying elementary school years where he just likes to bug ya... I love him so much though.

Blakely is the most sassy little girl I know. She's got such a spunky personality, and she's got almost as much of an attitude as I have! She's my shoppin buddy. She loves going to the mall with "Leewa B." because she knows after she's almost bored to death with my shopping, she knows she'll get spoiled at the Children's Place by her aunt Laura. She loves to have sleepovers, and she's absolutely fearless. She's a sweetheart and a firecracker at the same time and I love her to death.

Porter is the comedian of the bunch. He's only two and a half, but he is the funniest little kid you'll ever meet. He's always got time to give you a "squeeze," and he always has something cute to say. His little voice is adorable. He'll come over and ask where my puppy is. "Where's Zoe at? Where is her?" Whenever I ask him if he's cute he'll say no, I'll go through a list of people and ask if they're cute and the answer is always "no." Finally I'll say, "Who is cute?", "Zoe's cute." He's just the cutest little toddler I know. He's got the cutest little personality that can turn your bad day into a better one.

Tyler is the newest addition to the family. He's just six weeks old but I just love him! Tiny babies that you can just hold while they're asleep... it makes me wanna have kids someday.

My nieces and nephews are my life. When I hear a little voice from a thousand miles away say, "You're my best friend.", it makes you realize just what's important in your life.